I started learning about Jesus during Sunday services in 2008 with my family. My younger sister and I also attended JZone and was plugged in a DGroup soon after. Though I was living a double life, eventually, God made me realize how much I am in need of Him and His love. It was during this time I totally surrendered my life to Christ.
After this, I longed to serve Him as my act of worship. I prayed and God answered. The Lord then placed a burden in my heart to join the Singles’ministry. With a go signal from the Lord and my parents, I transitioned from JZone to B1G South in 2012.
I started as a worship ministry singer, the team admin, and other roles where help was needed. Each opportunity to serve was an amazing moment of experiencing His grace. God made it very clear that serving was completely about Him. This also allowed me to have a deeper relationship with God even more.
But, it wasn’t a perfect ride. In 2015, I entered my pruning stage when I started working for one of the biggest companies here in the Philippines. I worked a 12- to 16- hour shift on a daily basis, and would be completely drained on weekends, making it impossible for me to give my all when serving or not serve at all. I drifted away and burned out.
I also faced personal struggles. I started complaining and grumbling to my parents and a few trusted sisters. I was so discouraged to go back to the ministry. I also stopped answering my accountability partners and hid myself from everyone. I asked God why He would allow such painful things to happen.
Tired and defeated, I cried out one day to Jesus with a simple 4-word prayer, “Lord please help me.” With much encouragement from accountability partners, I started praying once again, seeking Him through His Word, and saw His faithfulness in slowly restoring me. Like the Psalmist in Psalm 71:20, “Though You have made me see troubles, many and bitter, You will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth You will again bring me up.”
God restored me moment by moment. My Godly family and accountability partners from the Singles’ ministry reminded me of areas of improvement and encouraged me to ask for the Lord’s forgiveness and surrender to God. Again, He answered my prayer, allowing me back to ministry. When I sang again, it was a whole new different level of experiencing Him. He reminded me of two things: 1) that I can do nothing apart from Him and 2) serving and ministry is an ultimate outflow of love.
As of the moment, God has directed me to now become a member of the DGroup care ministry, where I guide people into loving the Lord more through small groups.
I’ve been on a roller coaster ride, experienced ups, downs, and even rock bottom! It doesn’t mean that I won’t go through these again. However, I trust that the Lord will guide me every step of the way for His glory. To quote Romans 8:28, “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28
I am Yu Sosmena, a bond-servant to the One True God, seasoned all the time by His grace and justice. All praises and glory to our King Jesus Christ!