My name is Ana Loraine Ang. To describe myself, I should probably start by saying I am stubborn and a hard-headed daughter. Before knowing the Lord Jesus Christ, I was such a headache to my parents. I never really gave the respect that my parents truly deserved because I always believed that I should get what I want no matter how unreasonable it was. There were even times when I just informed them of my whereabouts when I was already at the place. I did not want to hear their response because for me it should always be yes. Whenever they say no to what I want, I rebel against them and write terrible things about them in my diary. In my perspective, they are the antagonists in my life especially my Dad who works abroad. For me, since he is working away from his family, he cannot reprimand or stop us from anything we are doing. My stubbornness even led me to be involved in a relationship that my parents knew nothing of. When they found out, they stopped me from meeting him. I resented my parents; especially my Dad and I even attempted to commit suicide in front of him to try to make him feel guilty about her daughter’s death. I was so blinded by emotions that time but I believe now it was God who prevented it from happening. After that incident, I stayed with my grandmother for a few days. Still continuing my studies, I thought it was my Lola who was supporting me financially. Apparently, it was my parents who were sending the money to my Lola and checking up on me from time to time.
Outside our house, I was thought of as a kind person. My classmates and people who knew me from outside the family knew nothing about how disrespectful I am towards my parents and sometimes they would send me notes to affirm my so called “kindness” towards them. In one note I received from a friend, she included a Bible verse and an invitation to join their Bible Study in the school grounds during our break. They eventually shared the Gospel with me but that was all. I knew Jesus Christ saved me but He is not Lord of my life. It was all just head knowledge. It was in April 23 during our devotion when I finally understood and felt the presence of Jesus Christ in my life and I accepted Him as my Lord and Savior. Since then, I knew there were to be some changes in my life. But not being a member of a church, it became difficult for me to learn what it truly means to profess Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour and to stand firm in my faith and spiritual walk. Eventually, I parted ways with my friend who shared the Gospel with me when we graduated. Since it got separated with my friend and I had no spiritual feeding, I went back to my old ways and due to my stubbornness I stumbled and sinned. What I did was dishonouring to God and I felt very broken and lost. I felt out of touch from Him.
Thankfully, my friend invited me again for a youth camp after a year of working as a Teacher. Through the camp, I felt God speaking to me in one of the messages shared to us about metamorphosis. It says, He can change a stubborn caterpillar into a beautiful butterfly through the willingness to repent. In 2 Corinthians 5:17 “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation, the old has gone, the new has come.” Because of my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ, who died and was crucified on the cross but rose again; He cleansed me and forgave my sins, He gave me eternal life and most importantly, through Him, I became daughter of God, the King of kings and Lord of lords. Galatians 3:26 “You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus.” In that camp, I got baptized and since then, I started to attend church with my friend in Caloocan and join their Bible study group. Eventually God lead me to transfer to CCF Alabang which is nearer. I joined a singles retreat at CCF and since then God’s transforming work in my life has been continued. He led me to join a small group and allowed me to attend GLC classes that helped me in my spiritual walk with the Lord. I am also serving joyfully through the Singles Ushering Ministry and AWANA Bible Club. All this time, my Heavenly Father, showed me and made me realized how much He loved me that He wanted to give the best for me, even if it means forsaking His own beloved Son, so that I will have eternal and abundant life and have fellowship with Him in His kingdom for eternity. John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.”
Now, by God’s grace and mercy, He gave me the opportunity to reconcile with my parents and now we are a family with open communication and abounding in love and caring for one another. They may not be the most perfect parents in the world, but they are the best parents that God give me. I praise and thank the Lord for my parents. Through them, God showed me what unconditional love means, what it means to be servant leader, what humility means, what it means to be contented in what you have, what it means to trust and to obey. I do not deserve parents as beautiful as they are because of my sins in the past, but my Lord and Saviour is gracious enough that I was raised by parents like them. God, my Heavenly Father, taught me how to deal my stubbornness and how to treat my parents with honour and respect. Exodus 20:12 “Honour your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land of the Lord your God is giving you.” and in Ephesians 6:1 “Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right.” ,” Through the transforming power of Christ, I chose to honour my parents, without compromising my faith, even if it means I have to reconsider my plans and decisions because I trust that God wants to protect me as His daughter. They wanted me to work abroad but in my heart I want to stay and teach children in the provinces of the Philippines. But I knew I need to obey my parents. So when an opportunity came, I applied for a work abroad. But I praise God because He saw the desire of my heart and he honoured it too. My application for a work abroad was denied. But even if I did not get accepted in that application, in that way I showed my parents how much I love God and them because I chose to obey my parents and give glory to God through my obedience to my parents John 14:15 “If you love me, you will keep my commandments”. Right now, I am still praying and waiting for God’s leading and my parent’s blessing to allow me to teach children in provinces of our country. Waiting maybe hard but I am joyfully serving God and trusting Him for His perfect timing and His work in my life.
And if today, someone would ask me to describe myself; I would definitely start by saying: I am Ana Loraine Ang, a sinner saved only by God’s grace, daughter of the Lord of lords and the King of kings. To God be all the glory and praise forever. Thank you.